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My Strength

It’s kind of like a catch-22. Or it’s kind of like going in circles. Sometimes, when you think too much about it you end up in the same space. So, there’s no point of thinking about it.

Sometimes, I wonder what my strengths and weaknesses are on a personal level. What do I excel in? And what can I always do a better job of? The answers often times don’t come too naturally nor quickly for me.

Sometimes, I feel like when I think too much about it, I end up confounding myself rather than enlightening myself. I feel like I am then defined by those limitations of both strengths and weaknesses. And I don’t really want that.

Sometimes, I feel like I have a lot of wisdom to share to my peers. That my perspective on life is wise and right. But, at other times, I don’t feel like that is the best way to approach life.

Sometimes, I feel like the best way to approach life is just through a natural and holistic approach. One where you just do something for the sake of doing something. Without thinking about how strong or weak you are in the area.

It’s the way I generally like to proceed with things these days. It’s hard to explain. But, I usually don’t like to worry too much about whether I am doing a good job or a bad job on something. I just do it. Like the Nike slogan always says.

So, it’s quite simple. I enjoy going through life without thinking about these personality traits. Defining people about what they are good or bad at. It’s a bit confounding. And I don’t like that.

It’s good to see - on the other hand - the strengths and weaknesses of people so that you know how to best complement them on a daily level. How to best support them. That is true.

So, I can see if people disagree with my point of view. If it can even be called a point of view. But, it just feels like there is so much more to offer and give to someone if you don’t limit your worldview of them to a certain characteristic or a certain trait.

Just be for the sake of being and things will come to you the natural way. I used to think of myself as someone that excelled in education. I was always good at math. Always good at English. Got good grades in school. And I thought that those were my strengths.

And they were for a while all the way up to high school. But then college at Cornell came, and I got my ass kicked in school. Barely struggling to be in the middle of the pack. And that was when I felt like education was no longer my strong suit anymore.

It’s tough and life is fluid like that. So, there’s really no need to define something in set ways. Saying “this is it” or “that is that”. My strengths can come and go like the tidal waves. I can be strong in a certain setting and weak in another setting. Fast in one place and slow in the next.

Tall in a room full of short people. And short in a room full of tall ones. It’s a case-by-case scenario. So, I never really felt these days like I should do something thinking about whether or not I am good at it or not. That analysis is not dependent on me.

It’s dependent on too many factors for me to control. And that is okay. It’s just that I am not defined nor limited by my strengths. I am not defined nor confounded by weaknesses. I am more than that. I go through life just being and just doing things for the sake of it.

Whether you disagree with me or not is up to you. And like all of my blog entries, it is not a “this is it” scenario where it is the truth and the absolute truth. For now, I just don’t like to be defined by a set number of characteristics. Life is more than that.

So, these days, I am still kind of uncertain as to what my real strengths are in life. Thankfully, I don’t have to go into a job interview these days. Otherwise, I would be really confounded with my answer! I guess my strengths vary. As do my weaknesses. It’s just kind of analyzed on a rolling basis.

And it’s not up to me to say what is right and what is wrong. The most I can do is just go with the flow. Do things for the sake of it. And not worry too much about whether I am doing a good job or not.

The good and the bad is for others to define. Not me. I am what I am. And that is good enough.

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